Ragu

Teruntuk kamu
yang mencuri cium di bibirku
Aku tak menyesal malam itu

Teruntuk kamu
yang membuatku terpaku
Aku yakin itu tak semu

Teruntuk kamu
yang memacu degup jantungku
Aku masih merindu

Teruntuk kamu
yang larut dalam duniamu
Aku ingin bertemu

Teruntuk kamu

yang menyusupi hatiku
Aku mulai meragu

Teruntuk kamu
yang terpaut jarak dan waktu
Aku mungkin menunggu

Think! Then Write..

When in doubt, write!
That is what i always tell myself. To be true there are so many things that bother me at this current time that its become too complicated to put it in writings (I know I know, another excuse).

Why write? because you have to separate things that haywire in your mind into a tidy structure, story after story should be segmented so you could find which one distract you the most, for me its plenty. These are some of them:

Getting my Bachelor
In the end of 2011 I failed the D IV entrance test, now I'm not really sure if I should give it another try or just apply to another university here. I'm also still not sure what major to take: management or accounting. Accounting would be applicable later, but management sounds interesting, especially because I will meet accounting subject less >.<

Moving out

Earlier last month, we moved to the new office building, which is a bit further from my boarding house compared to the previous one. So far, the additional distance had already made me late twice. I'm starting to think to move out and find a boarding house which is closer to the office. The thing is, I'm happy enough with my current room, it's spacious, comfortable, clean and cheap, not to mention i had it painted violet! I'm not sure there's another place that offer a room with the same facilities at the same bargain. Maybe i need to search from now..


Confrontation
Lately there are some people that are really disturbing, the way they behave and talk are not pleasant. Its just really amazing how such person can make someone feel uncomfortable or even worse, hurt without realizing it, and i mean amazingly disturbing. Well, as one of those who are affected, i actually have the willing to confront and tell directly what i (or we) have in mind, but then again i thought the person might take that as an offensive gesture, and it can get worse when it is taken as a way to create conflict, i don't want that. The problem is, the unpleasant feelings remain..

There are other things that I'm not really sure of, but let me worry about that.. Its too much to share though, for now.. ^o^

Anyway, at this particular time, i really miss most of my friends..

Home

Being a devoted writer (blogger to be precise) is not easy my friend!

I lost my mojo to write for the last several months, causing my blog in a state of vacuum for quite a while. I know when starting this blog, responsibilities will come with it. This blog is not only a place to express my mind, it is also a work that I have to continuously maintain. Sadly things are easier said than done. Things after things, events after events passed by or sometimes just wander inside my head without me having a chance to put them in writings. Yes it is always easy to find excuses for what we’re doing, in the end of the day I could see myself as a big procrastinator.

But not today, not starting today..

This maybe just a little, but I’ll start writing again!

Let me share the latest thing happened in my life. Last long-weekend I went home to Makassar. For me going home is always a joy and a burden at the same time. Joy for meeting my mom, dad, siblings and friends. Burden for continuous demand from my dad to get married soon. Its not that I don't wanna get married, just not soon.. I don't think I'm ready for such responsibilities, yet everyone else around seem to take that as a minor thing.

Anyway, lets just forget that for a while and focus on the joy. Every time I come home, my youngest sister always lingers by my side. When I'm out with my friends she would come along, when she needs to buy things, she would ask me to accompany her, she even sleep with me. My mom said every time I left home she'd be very sad but she's growing now, she can manage her emotion better. She loves to eat yet a bit picky on foods.

-my baby sister and i-

Another thing about going home is meeting up with friends, its fun since I don't meet them on everyday-basis any longer, even a short meeting would mean a lot of fun. Last holiday I just met several friends back home, I catch up a lot with Hilda, the successful entrepreneur and bride-to-be, and Ryan, a busy interior designer, we spent time updating each other stories at a coffee shop.

-this time just the three of us-

Another meet up was with Uthar, Nunu and Angga, all of them are seniors back then in campus. We went for a late-lunch, hunting traditional snacks, wandering around Somba Opu, watching sunset and eating pisang epe at Losari Beach, then rushing back to my house to get prepared for Wira's wedding reception. That day i had kapurung, one of the traditional food from Palopo. It's served with grilled fish and raw chilli-tomato sauce. Actually I've been craving for this food for quite a while before i finally had it, thanks to Uthar. If any of you happen to visit Makassar please stop by at RM Tiga Putra, they offer various traditional foods, you should try!

-party of four-

In short, its a nice holiday, very short though. I love being surrounded by my sisters and parents (minus the fuss about marriage), i love shopping with my mom and sisters, i love hanging out with my friends, i love the weather, i love the foods too . I wish i could spend more time at home, away from the office routine, away from burdening thoughts, away from everything.

-sunset at Losari Beach, will be missing this for a while-

p.s: to Wira, if you read this, sorry for not putting the group photo at your wedding, couldn't find one with good quality ^^v